It was such a long day yesterday, waiting for the phone to ring with the good news. I wasn't relaxed for a single moment and I got to thinking that that must have been how it was for my mother. When I was in the labour ward all those years ago, was my mum at home, all on edge, nervous with anticipation and worry at the same time? One thing I do know is that at the time, I was totally oblivious of it and probably would have been cross with her if she'd told me. After yesterday, I understand so much better. How I wish she was here to see meet her new great-grandson. And how my dad would have loved him, his grandkids were so special to my dad, so sad that he never got to meet any great-grandkids.
And because I never believe in doing things poorly or by half measure, I have got myself the worst possible dose of flu. I spent last weekend (a gloomy, rainy holiday weekend!) in bed and by Tuesday was taking 2 different antibiotics and I'm still coughing and coughing. I've got so much congestion that my breath bubbles in my chest.
So consequently, I am most saddened to say that I don't expect to be able to squeeze and smooch this precious new person for some time yet. Everyone else is telling me when they are going for a visit and I can't go. Why me?